ok so i dont know where else to post this kinda thing. thats why its here.
but ive been like going thru all my old shit. including tumblr, da, twt, and a particular website i wouldnt admit on a good day O__O
anyway last night after waking up from some bizarre dream at 2am i remembered about all my dA journals that i did and read literally every single one of them and im like. wow im kinda fucking sad. while i dont feel like i have friends anymore (and thats completely my fault i admit coz ive been isolating myself to like cope w trauma or whatever) but im also kind of amazed at like... how different my answers would be to this day even though it's been maybe 3 yrs at most. at lot has happened. ive grown a lot.
so i realized i miss doing these journal meme thingies. its pretty fuckn niche yeah but it doesnt matter. i guess i feel the need to express myself and i dont know how to do it sometimes so these kinda questions help me put my thoughts somewhere especially when i am at a loss for creative outlets... if that makes sense. i literally dont expect a soul to see this or care and thats okay!!!! if anything, don't. i'd prefer it. let this slip from your mind. absolutely nobody has to process or perceive me.
so, moving on, here are my updated thoughts and shit that doesn't matter and is completely irrelevant to everyone but me !!!
i am now 17 yrs old (18 next april), still a taurus, still confused abt my sexuality but certain i luv dat gewd pussy, and uh.... yeah. im me but a few years older. nothing that new but...idk...here it is.
btw can i mention how fucking crazy and weird it is to just suddenly become a Legal Adult. u can drive, u can vote, and u can almost buy alcohol even tho you've been drinking for a while now so that's kind of not worth mentioning. the point is i dont feel like i lived up to my teenage youth n its already abt to be over. ive spent 90% of my fucking life in my bedroom. wahoo for me i guess
ok ok ok. anyway. heres a quarantine themed ask meme i got from tumblr. i think that's fitting enough for our current climate. also this is wildly cringy and a very honest expression of my dumbest thoughts. just a lil warning<3
๐: what makes you happy? my cat, my comfort characters, the world and its innate beauty, and the concept that one day i will find someone who loves me wholly and entirely. oh and uhm my moms homemade mac & cheese. that makes me pretty happy.
๐: do you believe in guardian angels? absolutely!! in a more complicated sense, yeah i believe there are forces of energy looking over us and protecting us. some are good, some are bad, but there is indubitably complex energy impacting our lives.
๐: are you in love? w my sweet precious little pumpkin yes i am !!! but if my cat doesnt count then uh... no. no i am not. i havent had the slightest bit of romantic interaction in litrally years
๐ญ: whatโs the last thing you cried about? missing my little sister lol
๐ก: what makes you angry? bigotry, animal abuse, and uhhh annoying little bitches idk
๐ป: do you believe in ghosts? absolutely!!!
๐ฝ: do you believe in aliens? youd have to be blatantly stupid not to. how can u truly believe there is no possibility of alien life beyond our tiny little pebble of a home. i just wish i knew personally what it was like
โ ๏ธ: whatโs your biggest fear? being abandoned or dying unloved. oh n uhh grown men. cant trust em mfers.
๐พ: whatโs your favorite video game? night in the woods, fallout 4, minecraft, and undertale. those will always have a special place in my heart. oh and i realize it's not considered a very sophisticated game but animal jam is also one of my all time favorites ever. that was my fuckn childhood dude. its so much more complicated than it seems im not even kidding
๐: what color are your eyes? a very dark brown. it looks hazelnut brown in the sun tho if that...counts for anyything.. which obvs doesnt but...w/e
๐งโ๐ง: whatโs your dream job? uhm a chef or a veterinarian. or maybe just a humble little farmer w fluffy cows n homegrown strawberries
๐จโ๐ฉโ๐งโ๐ฆ: do you want to be a parent? i do but its gonna take me a long time before i get to a place i feel i can raise a human being
๐: do you want to get married? depends who obviously
๐ถ: do you have any pets? yeahhhhh the same 3 kitties ive had for years. theyre mentioned in literally every journal meme ive done
๐น: whatโs your favorite flower? ok well i noticed a lot of times i didnt actually answer this question n thats fair cos.. idrk.. but i guess id pick like.. orchids or sunflowers. i like dramatic colorful flowers
๐: where are you from? im a cali native yet i havent lived more than 2 fukn yrs in the state at once lmfaoo
๐ค: whatโs your favorite type of weather? cloudy and rainy!!! if theres thunder even better!
๐: whatโs your favorite fruit? as usual, strawberries n honeydew melon. but ive taken a liking to apples paired w pb
๐ฅ: whatโs your favorite vegetable? ooh def roasted carrots n roasted cauliflower... i also like steamed broccoli and raw carrots w mustard which IK sounds weird but i swearrrrr its so fukn good
๐: do you like fast food? well yeah but i havent eaten it in soooo long... if u read my other entries youll generally pick up on that i ate micky ds a lot at that point. but to answer the question yeah i like my pick of fast food (quesaritos, mcnuggets, california kitchen frozen pizzas) but generally it doesnt do anything for me anymore
๐: what pizza toppings do you like? oohooohhh....banana peppers, extra marinara sauce, caramelized onions, n hmm grilled chicken is p good. i also like my pizza hella thin crusted yano?
๐ฆ: whatโs your favorite flavor of ice cream? >:3 well im pretty consistent here. i like rly good quality vanilla and i loooove caramel/oreo ice creams
๐ฌ: do you like candy? yyeah kinda but again i dont rly eat it as much anymore. id eat the shit out of a bag of 100 grands tho
โ๏ธ: coffee or tea? i still cannot seem to decide on this one.. i love coffee 2 death but tea is great for something warm n rly convenient to make
๐บ: do you drink? oh...oh yeah. sorry baby charlie you've been doin shots of titos early in the morning for a while now but ur not like.., fucked up or anything so i guess its fine
๐: do you like sports? not enuf to care
๐: tell a story about something youโve won! honestly ive never won a damn thing in my life. but my english teacher put up my poem abt lesbians on his wall for literally everyone to see.. does that count
๐: what was the last concert you went to? havent been to one :/ yeah ik. its been years n i havent done a damn thing lmfaoo
๐ฌ: whatโs your favorite movie? ok well.. my taste has definitely evolved a little since. good time, the babysitter, coraline, it follows, n uhh idk. nightcrawler was rly good. theres a lot of rly amazing movies out there
๐ค: whatโs your favorite song? dazed & confused by led zeppelin, someone purer by mystery jets, skeleton song by kate nash, dread in my heart by mother mother, comfortably numb by pink floyd, the entire crybaby album, my funeral boy/blue moon motel by nicole dollanganger, and soooooo many other songs.. i could go on forever abt this
๐ธ: do you play any instruments? nope. in the last 3 yrs no i have not learned a damn thing
๐: do you like driving? i still dont know how to drive but i know i wont like it no matter what. it just gives me sm fukn anxiety
๐จ: have you ever been arrested? no thank gawd lol
โ๏ธ: whatโs the last place you traveled to? well uh i lived in texas for abt a year before now which we happen to be reaching a full year in georgia and now we're literally about to move to california....
๐: what 3 things would you bring to a deserted island? im never totally clear if these kinda questions include like water, food, n shelter automatically...assuming it is and i already have those resources... i would bring books, some kind of device i cld play music on, and uhhhh weed. id bring so much fukn weed
๐ซ: if youโve gone to college/university, what did you study? if not, what would you like to study? id like to study forensic science n culinary
โช๏ธ: are you religious? no but i am spiritual
๐ฑ: show your home/lockscreen! hah... ok well here it is
yes thats ron weasley as my lockscreen. no i will not apologize for it
xxx: post the last picture in your camera roll!
this is me n my mom lmfao
๐ฌ: do you smoke? well yeah... both weed & nicotine but i guess im lowkey quitting nic now since my vape ran out :-/
๐ฎ: do you believe in magic? ohhh yeah. not like in that corny way where i think Everything is magic but i think theres more to what we, as humans, recognize to be logical and based in only fact. if that makes sense....
๐: showers or baths? scalding hot showers bby
๐งธ: do you still have any childhood toys? oh yeah. ive kept every single lps
๐: whenโs your birthday? april 28th 2003 bby
๐: whatโs your favorite book? man... winter moon by dean koontz was rly memorable, uhm n i love the entire harry potter series since i FINALLY started reading it (im on order of the pheonix btw), n im sure theres so many more i cld add but for now thats good
๐: do you like writing? uh...yeah. duh. even if it aint good im writing Constantly. constantly. like even in my brain im thinking What Can I Write Next
โ๏ธ: do you write a lot of letters? no but i wish coz to me its such a sincere loving gesture
โค๏ธ: whatโs something that you love? i love music, n yummy food, and good art, and kindhearted people, and trees, and i like warm blankets and i like getting my vape stash replenished n i like satisfying bong hits . theres a lot i love n its all based in comfort lmfaoo im a fukn taurus at heart bby
๐: whatโs something that you hate? bigots, wet socks, anything thats boring to my undiagnosed adhd brain, n uhhh weak coffee
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๐ - favorite nickname/petname? baby.. call me baby and ill marry u
๐บ - your comfort film/show? the office or mp100
๐ - favorite place to be? in the woods
๐ - 1 thing you love about yourself (you can do it !!) uhm i have good music taste
๐ - something you admire in other people? their hearts uwu
๐ - dream getaway location & what youโd do there? italy or france and id eat pastries and lots of food and walk around a lot maybe
๐น - your ideal fashion aesthetic? u kno that stoner/indie/fox academy style ? all earthy colors and oversized shirts etc etc. that or all black
๐ - comforting smell? teddy bears
๐ - first tv/fictional crush? betty boop lol
๐ - five items that make up the core of your aesthetic? black nail polish, trees, fake vampire teeth, anything red, and ghost stickers. does that paint the right picture?
๐ - song that plucks your heartstrings? hmm a game of you - radiator hospital
๐ - someone you look up to & why? yoongi maybe
๐- compliment some people you admire ! tobey i love u ur really epic and so is ur art n everything that u code . raw fucking talent
๐ฅ - something you are passionate about? i dont know man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
๐ - describe your ideal calm afternoon ! sitting out on my lanai, sipping iced tea w lemon, reading a book, and listening to music w my cat by my side. theres plants all around me too
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1. What's wrong but sounds right? biting into a whole kitkat bar. dont fucking deny it. we'd all do it if it were socially acceptable
2. Who was your craziest/most interesting teacher? ive been homeschooled longer than ive been in public school so idk
3. Do you think that aliens exist? absolutely i do
4. What was the most unsettling film you've seen? ooh probably creep or get out
5. What artist or band do you always recommend when someone asks for a music recommendation? (cups hands around my mouth) NO VACATION!!!!!!!
6. If animals could talk, which animal would be the most annoying? no offense but parakeets probably
7. What was the last song you sang along to? die anywhere else - the mandopony nitw cover
8. What languages do you wish you could speak? italian and french
9. What's the most pleasant sounding accent? really anything but most british accents
10. What food do you crave most often? pizza
11. What's your secret talent? dont have any tbh
12. What trend are you tired of? maybe yellow kanken bags just cuz i see them all the time lol
13. What's the funniest TV show you've ever seen? the office, arrested development, and iasip. easily.
14. What would do you always misspell? veternarian
15. What's the weirdest conversation you've eavesdropped on? i cant even hear people when theyre talking to me u really think im out here eavesdropping?
16. What topic could you spend hours talking about? creepy stuff. creepy theories, films, stories, art, anything creepy goes.
17. Which way should toilet paper hang, over or under? over
18. What are some of the dumbest lyrics you've heard in a song? imma master baby with ur bra..........imma beat that pussy like u never felt before
19. If you had a giraffe you needed to hide, where would you hide it? in a zoo or a really tall moving box
20. What songs do you only know the chorus to? anything mainstream pop
21. What songs do you feel compelled to sing along with when you hear them, even if you don't totally know all the words? kpop songs ghjkerjnbhjgk
22. What's the most boring superhero you can come up with? meet the convenient straw man. he can make a single plastic straw appear when u need it for ur drink.
23. What word is a lot of fun to say? motherfucker and succulent
24. What songs have you completely memorized? blue moon motel by nicole dollanganger and the friends theme song
25. Who's you go to band or artist when you can't decide on something to listen to? id guess clairo or no vacation
26. What shows are you into? a lot i dont feel like listing them all
27. What TV show or movie do you refuse to watch? riverdale ....i cant its so bad. it screams "im trying to appeal to the millenials"
28. What is the most annoying question that people ask you? no one ever asks me questions lol
29. What movie title best describes your life? dumb and dumber
30. What song or artist do you like but rarely admit to liking? if idk whether or not they like it i never mention bts or kpop ghjskdjnbhg
31. If you had to change your name, what would you change it to? from charlie? probably fiona
32. What do you like most about your family? ..................
33. What's the title of the current chapter of your life? watch local dumbass completely self destruct
34. Would you rather always be 10 minutes late or always be 20 minutes early? 20 minutes early
35. Would you rather never use social media/apps again or never watch another movie or TV show? fuck
36. Would you rather have no eyebrows or only one eyebrow? nooooooooo i love my eyebrows
37. Would you rather have chapped lips that never heal or terrible dandruff that can't be treated? MNGHJASKD I LITERALLY HAVE UNTREATED DANDRUFF AND CHAPPED LIPS 24/7
38. What's your guilty pleasure? true crime i guess but i just dont talk abt it w ppl cuz ik they wld think im weird loll
39. What's one of your favorite memories? hey thats private get outta here
40. What's your favorite word? succulent
41. What's your favorite book? my lesbian experience with loneliness and otherwise known as shelia the great
42. What's the first concert you attended? n/a
43. What's your favorite 90's/'00 show(s)? friends
44. What is your most used emoji? the tear emoji , kissy emoji, and all the heart emojis . i use them all for yoongi <3
45. What fictional place would you most like to go? idk
46. What's your favorite drink? iced coffee and shirley temple
47. Are you usually early or late? early
48. What city would you most like to live in? a nice little town in italy i suppose
49. What age do you want to live to? i havent really decided yet
50. What is one of your favorite smells? vanilla candles, apple pie, teddy bears, freshly cut grass, and the beach. oh thats a lot